讨厌被暗示的感觉。。。

什么事情都要问清楚，不然误会会越来越深。。那时伤害会很深。。
经过了这次，得到了教训，不要随便就相信。。
别人不是在暗示你。。
不要当白痴了。。
麦佳文，够了！！！！
你不要那么白痴相信会有改变事实的一天。。。
别人没有在暗示你。。
你够了。。不该再去看人家的东西了。。
看了会害了你啊。。!!!

prefect camp

yin min,sze min,shu pei,choy yeok and jia mei...

we all are waiting the FOOD...
cuz that time we all are REALLY hungry...~


when the gathering start..~

although our prefect camp was very tired with MARCHING...

but,we felt HAPPY...

hehehe..~~~

erm,this all picture save from jia mei there....

last night,my parents came my grandma house cuz long time we din meet...miss them so much...erm,got a good news here...saturday i can go back because sunday my dad not go his friend's daughter's wedding dinner..is go "CHENG BENG" haha...so,sunday morning he will fetch me back to my grandma house...YEAH !!!

tmr i will go back alone because that choy yeok !! geram nia...duwan go back together...she say we not same bus...hng !! i think she is lazy to wait me gua...haha...

still got a good news here..but i think this can be bad news too gua...i also duno..wakaka...

(phooi kuan,dun angry har..juz joke..) choy yeok,me,yong carmen,yun han,chee hui,sue na became penolong ketua pengawas...MY GOD...choy yeok and me was shocked when get this news...haha..today is the 1st day we duty..my senior is phooi kuan...will follow her two weeks...maybe 1 or 2 months we not penolong again larr...ms.ling will change people..cuz want to knw every prefect de "kuan"<---- something this meaning larrr...hahahaha...

hope i will do my best in every prefect's works lorrr...dun let anybody scold tor good liao lorr...hehe...

I WILL TRY MY BEST IN EVERYTHINGS....

sports day

today was our school's sports day. it's tired...today morning i and zhu lyn plan to go stadium together by 6.55am because i nid to reach there by 7.15am..but at the end,i go staduim myself...because zhu lyn and shu pei late a bit only come and find me...i scare i wil late,so i go myself...

today morning was raining,i think our sports day will cancel...but at the end also continue...all the prefect wear their blazer and ready to start marching...we all marching in the rain...but,it's quite syok la...never try like that before..hehe..

after finish marching,all the prefect do their own duties...shao xuan and me duty blue house..just walk here,walk there...my leg was pain now!!! when 10am something,the BIG sun come out !!! arhhh,it's hot...all the student were open their umbrella include prefect..haha..now,my leg became two colours...so UGLY...yuckss...wear slipper to tuition let people see tiok also paiseh leh..haih...

now i was so tired...maybe will go "fo xue yuan" study becuase i many days din touch my books dy...many homework is waiting me...HATE them so much !!!

bad mood

yesterday when my dad fetch me to tuition,he told me ,this sunday he wants to go his friend's daughter's wedding dinner....haiz,so i cannot go back my own house this week !!! i already three weeks din go back...

miss my own bed,my blanket,my own pc....haih..

this saturday still got marching practice,it's tired...duno ms.ling got wat comment again..

i really angry?

hui ching,你刚刚告诉我的事情，你一直觉得我很生气。。其实老实说，我真的有生气，但我真的找不到理由生气。。哪些都不管我的事。。跟我扯不上任何关系。。。
但有谁听到这些事会不生气呢？？除非对方是很大量的人，但很可惜，我并不是。。我是出了名的小气鬼 !!!
知道了又怎样？？没什么大不了。。
我不可能会再跟她面对面讲话。。更不可能再联络她，你问我为什么？？ 我只能告诉你，如果现在我还在希望有机会我可以联络她的话，痛苦的人，会是我 !!!
我不要再知道她们的事情了，大家没交谈那么久，对于你们的事情，我算是落后很多。。。但，这的确是一件好事。。。

Love Story ~ Taylor Swift

We were both young when I first saw you.

I close my eyes and the flashback starts:

I'm standing there

on a balcony in summer air.

See the lights, see the party, the ball gowns.

See you make your way through the crowdand say hello;

Little did I know

That you were Romeo;

you were throwing pebbles,

And my daddy said, "Stay away from Juliet."

And I was crying on the staircase,

begging you, 'Please, don't go.'

And I said,"Romeo, take me somewhere we can be alone.

I'll be waiting; all there's left to do is run.

You'll be the prince and I'll be the princess

It's a love story - baby just say 'Yes.'

So I sneak out to the garden to see you.

We keep quiet 'cause we're dead if they knew.So close your eyes;

escape this town for a little while.

'Cause you were Romeo, I was a scarlet letter,

And my daddy said "Stay away from Juliet,"

But you were everything to me;

I was begging you, 'Please, don't go,'

And I said,"Romeo, take me somewhere we can be alone.

I'll be waiting; all there's left to do is run.

You'll be the prince and I'll be the princess

It's a love story - baby just say 'Yes.'

Romeo save me;

they're tryin' to tell me how to feel.

This love is difficult, but it's real.

Don't be afraid; we'll make it out of this mess.

It's a love story - baby just say 'Yes.'

I got tired of waiting,

Wondering if you were ever comin' around.

My faith in you was fading

When I met you on the outskirts of town.

And I said,"Romeo save me - I've been feeling so alone.

I keep waiting for you but you never come.

Is this in my head?

I don't know what to think-

"He knelt to the ground and pulled out a ring and said,"

Marry me, Juliet. you'll never have to be alone.

I love you and that's all I really know.

I talked to your dad,

go pick out a white dress;

It's a love story - baby just say 'Yes.'

Oh, oh.

We were both young when I first saw you...

这世界很烦人

刚从学校的camp回来，回家前有了个检讨会，把全部的不满都说了出来。。但最终我还是要说，“有很多事情是一言难尽的！！需要很长时间的观察就知道原因。。而且又是很好的朋友之间也很难说出口，可能说出了会影响之间的友情，如果对方是理智的话，她当然会听，但要是我们的“对方”是野蛮的呢。。怎么说还是一样的。。”还有，要是每个人都懂得迁就别人，这世界就很完美了。。什么事情都要少数服从多数啊，既然我们输了，就应该跟从多数的指示，而不是在那边抱怨。。一个晚上就可以了解你是一个怎样的人。。。我承认，我是少数的那一边，但我并没有摆什么脸色，还是一样和大家一起疯！！除非我玩累了。。经过了这次的camp,我更了解我的朋友，更了解她们的性格和态度。。其实也没什么惊喜，我们都很了解，超了解大家的性格。。

刚刚爸打电话给我，问我为什么住在婆婆家那么就都没打过一通电话给妈，她说妈很生气，叫我立刻打电话回去。。还有一些补习的事情。。我真的很不了解，为什么就是有那么不迁就别人的人呢？？？ 这件事我真的是一言难尽。。过后就打电话给妈，妈的语气并没有很生气，但我还是立刻向她解释。。


我真的很累，又加上“那些”事情，我真的累了。。天啊，可以让我生一场大病吗。。

其实你觉得我已重生了吗？？事实上还没痊愈，表面上和真实的那一面。。有很大的差别！！！

只想安慰自己：你不要再折磨我了！！ 够了，你累了，我累了，大家都累了。。不要再出现在我脑海里了！！

终于有答案了。。

我从哪里得到答案并不重要。。重要的是，我终于知道你想什么。。。

我明白了！！！！终于明白了！！遇到我，是你倒霉！！！

对不起，原来我是那么的可怕。。

还是没改善

家里的经济情况还是没改善，过这种日子多久了。。我也慢慢习惯了。。也不能说现在才习惯，而是早就习惯了。。从小就是这样，只是那次的金融风暴导致我们变本加厉。。。金融风暴真的很恨，害我爸新年的花红没得拿，而且薪水也好像减了一半。。平时就算还过得去了。。但薪水减一半真的是太离谱了！！！让我们新年时过得好辛苦，没什么出门，就待在家看戏。到现在情况还是一样。每一天就是绞尽脑汁地帮家里省钱。。每天带便当去学校。。这样真的省了很多，但剩下来的钱都被拿去交什么会员费。。。本来打算省下零用钱，但就在一天之内就可以花光。。就是为了交这交那！！！有时来跟我收钱的人都会被我骂！！哈哈哈。。

学长团在六月的假期又要计划去旅行了，本来还打算可以不用去，怎么知道老师却说：“这是lawat sambil balajar,一定要去。”我的天，旅费大概是 RM200++ 叻，怎么跟妈开口！！！但妈答应我说等到我爸退休后，一切就会改善。。希望这是真的！！！！

今天，我做了一件错事。。当我做了，我还迟钝的问淑佩：“我刚刚那样，是不是很不应该。。”她跟我说了一句：“你都这样做了，难道还要叫她回来然后跟她打招呼吗？？”我真的不敢直视她的眼睛。。会怕，但就是不知道我怕什么。。她又不凶。。以前到现在就是这样。。。真的很奇怪，身为一个学长，坏学生都见惯了。。但就是会怕直视一个人的眼睛！！！笑话！！

刚补习回来，本来打算跟蕙真她们搭巴士去的，但最后还是跟怡霖去。。搭巴士很累，又不懂 Ms.Ling 放不放人，还是决定去迟一点的班。。

感觉今天蛮累的，全身都是臭酸味。。今晚还必须补习到10.30pm，回到家就接近11pm了。。明天早上又是到学校去练习操步了！！！希望我们所付出的努力，会换来好的结果。。加油，学长们！！！

努力果然有收获

今天早上当然是到学校去练习 marching 咯。。。晒了那么多的太阳，流了那么多的汗。。换来Ms.Ling 的：“hmm , good..” 不久又再：“ya , good..” 虽然就有这几句话，但我心里就觉得很开心。。感觉我们的努力是值得的！！但很累。。头很痛。。每位学长都变黑了！！我们操 basic 的比较好命，没晒那么多太阳。。多数学长都是操 fancy 的，她们比较很可怜。。晒得比我们多。。因为是第一次参加 fancy 的，所以老师都会比较注重。。不要差得离谱嘛。。

真得很心痛。。我黑了很多！！！

真心话 ~~ 是我想多了。。

~~ private ~~

nice song ~ if your heart's not in it

I'm missing you

Girl even though you're right here by my side

Cause lately it seems

The distance between us is growing too wide

I'm so afraid that you're saying it's over

The last thing that I wanna hear

If your heart's not in it for real

Please don'`t try to fake what you don't feel

If love's already gone

It's not fair to lead me on

Cause I would give the whole world for you

Anything you ask of me I'd do

But I won't ask you to stay

I'd rather walk away

If your heart's not in it

You say that you love me

But baby sometimes, you're just saying the words

If you've got something to tell me

Don't keep it inside

Let it be heard

I'm so afraid that you're saying it's over

Girl I'll make it easy for you

How I wish I could take us in time

But it's gone too far

now we can't rewind

And there's nothing that I can do

To stop me loding you

I can't make you change your mind

If your heart's not in it...

输了。。

比赛刚完，结果和我预料的一样。。但幸亏不是我垫底。。。哈哈！！！但，我尽力了。。就因为紧张。。希望明年会更好。。。加油！！！！！

紧张

等下就是acara akhir 了，3.30pm要到学校。本来想直接留在学校的，但因为我今天早上睡迟了，结果来不及冲凉。。到了下午身体很粘，就决定回家冲个凉。。现在只等着去学校了。。。

希望等下我不要输得太难看。。尽力就好。。

害怕失望

不要再拖拖拉拉了！！！心里很想知道答案，但又不想知道答案。。。很矛盾！！！ 你说我什么都是我讲。。你以为我想吗？？？很矛盾又做不出选择。。。对不起，我骗你了。。。我其实也并不讨厌你。。。。。只是想安慰自己。。你会觉得我自私。。。只能说，这就是我。。

怎么会讨厌她

我怎么可能会讨厌她。。。哈哈哈！！！我自己也不懂。。

*** 你真的让我很失望。。没答案就算了，你竟然什么表示都没有，这算什么？？好啊。。你别怪我绝情，冷淡。。

这就是我！！！！！***

考试终于过了

今天早上考3科。。bio,sejarah,m.maths，我的sejarah完蛋了！！！不管它，反正我的add maths 都不及格了。。。我的 add maths 只差三分就及格了。。明天再向老师讨，一定要讨到！！呵呵。。。刚才放学后本来可以回家，但突然想到我必须留下来练习，明天就要比赛了。。。有点怕！！！明天还需要留下来来比赛到傍晚！！我的天！！！累死我了。。。还有我的假期！！！竟然学校的节目都排得满满的！！！
请问这是假期吗？？ ：~
monday -- marching
tuesday -- marching
wednesday -- marching
thursday -- prefect camp(marching)
friday --prefect camp(marching)
saturday -- RC flag day
sunday -- RC flag day

MONDAY --HOLIDAYS FINISH!!!
每一年的三月假期就是这样！！！
讲到三月，昨天是我的生日哦。。。昨天去到学校时，shu pei 和audrey 就跟我说：“ah bak，happy birthday。。” 当时我还愣在那边。。竟然忘了是我的生日！！！yin min 说礼物会在假期时才拿给我。。。忙着考试，没时间逛街。。。

我想得到的答案到最终也没得到。。。昨天去了那个地方，庆祝师尊的生日。。感觉整个人觉悟了许多。。我知道师尊不喜欢自己的“契孙女”是这个样子。。昨天还跟我说了一句：“长大了哦。。”所以呢，我会努力去往好的方面想。。。加油哦！！还有，师尊替我换了名字~~ 麦佳（wen) <----找不到这个字。。。努力做回自己，这次的月考过了，是时候准备下一次的考试了！！！加油啊。。。不要败给自己！！

今天学姐们拿spm成绩了。。有些人拿 7a 哦。。。哈哈哈。。说要等我，结果开心到跟朋友去玩了吧！！！哈哈，她就是这样。。听说很多学姐都变美了。。但我休息节时没下去，不懂发生什么事。。哈哈。。

好了，考试过了！！ 轻松了！！ 明天要比赛了！！ 上天保佑啊。。

没责任感的人！

很讨厌不负责任的人，明知道今天有测验，但你却没来。。。虽然这只是普通的测验，但你有没有想过，你给你组员留下了什么印象？？？她们都会对你失去信心。。。她们都可能会代表去参加的，而你是这种AJK，要是我是组员的话，我肯定不会把你当AJK看待。。。因为你根本不尊重组员！！！今天幸好老师没惩罚最差的组，如果有惩罚的话。。我会很恨你！！！让我们丢尽了脸！！！

刚刚又想哭了。。

~~ private ~~

你是故意的吗？？

~~ private ~~

图书馆

今天又留在图书馆了，在温习功课时，很自然地视线会转到书架的角落。。。很多回忆就浮现在我脑海里。。。真的很难让我专心！！！我一直告诉自己，不能这样。。。。这会害了我。。。但我就是不能阻止，怎么办。。再这样下去，真的会疯掉！！！！

答应过自己的事，不能反悔！！！不想就不想！！！不可以犹豫。。。
麦嘉文，是时候读书了。。不要再犹豫了！！她又没反应。。当做没这回事算啦。。。

exam coming..

just came back from school...just now stay back at library with woei ning..next week exam start dy,din prepair anything yet !!! so,i plan this whole week will stay back at library to do my revision...cuz if i study at home,my cousin's laptop will "call" me..!! hahaha..same like now...
my mum said i cannot fail any subject...IMPOSSIBLE !!! it's hard larrhhhh... i sure fail lehhh...haiz !!! make my parents sad again...but,it's really hard marhh...anyway, just "jia you" for my all subject..dun care i hate or like.....
hate my add maths teacher loh...everyday come in and write notes on the blackboard...call us to copy..then explain to us...actually i understand what's she teaching...but really boring during add maths period...3/4 of the class was sleeping,do their own homework,talking....include me...hahahaha...but,sometimes i also will listen geh....dat day she scolded our class,but after 1 minutes...our class noisy again...wahahahaha.....

k lar...stop here...wanna do my revision and homework dy....

** dun sms me or phone me o...my sim card cnt open...*** thx..